Friday, September 19, 2008

He is five

Really, how can it be that five years has passed since I first laid eyes on him?
How?
The first time I saw him, smelled him, held him, he was still sticky and white, had black squiggly hair, and I remember it like it just happened a second ago. That moment, I fell so deep in love with this being that we had made, I never wanted him out of my sight. I never knew you could love someone like that.
People would look at him in the grocery store, you know, admiring a new baby and all, and if they lingered too long, I was afraid they were trying to steal him from me.
I felt like we were the only two people in the world for a long time. Just him, and I.

There is something about your first child. You are in rapture, and wondering "what in the world did I just do?" all at the same time.

To see him today, in his glory, playing golf with his father and his new club, gets me.

He is going to grow up, I can't keep him small, and sheltered.



Oh, I hope this year goes by slow.


20 comments:

Suzanne said...

You and me both! Kindergarden is changing my 5-year old. He's still sweet as ever, but like it or not, he's becoming a real boy. Just as it should beof course, but I'll do what I can to stop the clock.

Fran said...

It seems like just yesterday I was feeling the same way, and my oldest will soon be 27. And my baby turns 21 Monday. Where did the years go?

Fran

melissa s. said...

we're half a year away, but 5 seems to be sneaking up on us with my oldest. and it seems so...old!

thanks for visiting my blog, hope your sauce turned out well!!

happy weekend!

Marcia said...

It's funny...We talk about being pregnant, the labor and deliver, but somehow they forgot to tell me I could feel that way about someone else. You said it all so wonderfully.

QuiltedSimple said...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! They grow up so fast - enjoy it while he is little!
Kris

Meagan said...

Oh Katie-it breaks my heart and warms it all at the same time! I appreciate that you savor the babes' births, I too think back on Ava's birthday as the most special and best day I can remember in my life. Sometimes I just recall the day and the details just so it stays fresh in my mind! I am so excited that we get to know Addison as a human, but I know how you feel, about the longing for their babyhood, about you two being the only 2 people in the world-I can relate and you say it so well. He is so funny and good, what a treat that we get to know these little people and enjoy their unique personalities! We went pumpkin picking on Wednesday-early though. I wish we had seen you guys!

Sarah and Jack said...

Hapde Burfday!

APA said...

Sweet, sweet. He's a beautiful child as are your daughter and youngest son. And look at that golf swing! Many, many happy days and precious moments for him, for you, for your family!

At Home Mommy Knits said...

Happy birthday to your little boy! Since we can't slow time I guess we just have to try and enjoy every moment, and you seem to do that very well!

a friend to knit with said...

oh katie. it does go by too fast. and as hard as i try to slow it down....it just seems to speed up.
enjoy every moment......i wish charlie was 5 again.

happy birthday to your big boy.

amandajean said...

happy birthday to your 5 year old!

I am Arizona; a person, not a place. said...

I remember my son's birth like it was yesterday, too. Time flies too quickly when you are a mother, I think!

I am Arizona; a person, not a place. said...

PS: Happy Birthday!!!

Steph said...

Congratulations to you all!

Hilary said...

What a beautiful tribute to your son!

nova said...

I hope he had a great birthday celebration! The idea of kids growing makes me both excited and a little nervous. 5...I can't even imagine 5. I am still nervous about 3!

lucky knitter said...

Happy Birthday to your son! Five is such a wonderful age!

BizzyMommyKnits said...

i need a slow year here , too! very nice post!

Just Jen said...

Instantly made me sing this song...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yOdBDatm3yM&feature=related

tiennie said...

Happy happy birthday to your big guy! It's scary how fast they grow!